https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/ 2026-08-03T22:36:08+00:00 https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/ https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?media=wiki:logo.png text/html 2026-07-16T21:56:50+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=playing_with_thoughts_without_anthropomorphising&rev=1784239010&do=diff 🪝 Playing with thoughts without anthropomorphising Watching the kids playing with duplo, trainset and other toys lying around., Exploring the space of the living room in so many different ways, roleplaying a zoo computer game with abilities, power ups and rewards set amongst the furniture. text/html 2026-07-16T21:56:41+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=start&rev=1784239001&do=diff I started this collection of notes in the first few years of my kids being born. For the first few years of each of their lives I had very little studio time, my main artistic practice was writing notes to myself about how I'd like to practice if I had the time. I got into the habit of quickly tapping down ideas on my phone on the loo, on the stairs inbetween fetching teddies/clothes/food or just before falling asleep. As hard as that was, it's really done me a lot of good to just stop for a bit… text/html 2026-07-16T21:54:14+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=thoughts_are_desires&rev=1784238854&do=diff Thoughts are desires This is what connects my practice back to the messyness of people. What im feeling invisibly moving around situations isn't just thoughts that happen to be moving, but the conflicting forces of my own and other peoples wills, intentions and desires. Thoughts aren’t static representations moving through space, but intentions for things to become that way, moving towards the thing they want to affect. text/html 2026-07-16T21:51:36+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=being_a_superorganism&rev=1784238696&do=diff 🪼 Being a superorganism Thoughts build the self as termites build a mound, living around the body like fish, shrimp and octopuses, in and around coral reefs. This feels key for this method - I want people to be able to roleplay on the scale of the ants. There could be something liberating in dropping our responsibility for our self and playing, thinking, moving and talking as the multitudes of different small but highly specialised thoughts and feelings. text/html 2026-07-16T21:50:31+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=that_feeling_of_being_watched&rev=1784238631&do=diff 👀 That feeling of being watched Sandi Hughes told me that when someone was getting above themselves and taking up too much space, she would say to them “Get back in your body you!” This is the phenomenon I’m trying to explore, the feeling I get, that we send out parts of ourselves to scan, interpret and manipulate the social space we're in. I can feel myself do it and I can sense the presence of other peoples emotions and wants. Most of them busy, intense and pressing onto me or other people, … text/html 2026-07-16T21:49:24+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=i_always_externalise_myself&rev=1784238564&do=diff 🎈 I already externalise myself I externalise myself more than I ever realised. The way I perceive, hold myself and speak in social situations, expands my sense of self out into the room. This was the first big observation sharon shared about her experience of me. After the car crash I've had time by myself for the first time in ages. I'm making sense of what that collision means because I wasn't worried about it and it happened anyway. But before it, there's me filling up all this space with a… text/html 2026-07-16T21:47:02+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=continuous_space_from_heart_to_room&rev=1784238422&do=diff 🫀 Continuous space from heart to room Inside is fluids, outside is fluids. Thinking, bodily sensations and rememberings move as fluids and gases inside and outside our bodies. The space I experience as being inside me is continuous with the space outside me. It sounds obvious but it’s taken 46 years for me to feel it. How much energy do I consume, trying to block the flow of unknown affects from out there to in here and vice versa? text/html 2026-07-16T21:46:21+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=ar_to_show_the_gaps&rev=1784238381&do=diff 🤸 AR to show the gaps I want to create experiences through which people see thoughts as thoughts and so have vivid sensory and embodied experience of themselves in material social spaces. Picturing the moment people switch focus from augmented thoughts to their own presence, the presence of others and the space between. text/html 2026-07-16T21:45:24+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=pressing_outwards&rev=1784238324&do=diff 🫵🏽 Pressing Outwards When I have time to myself, even moments waiting for the toast to pop, I can have beautiful embodied feelings of integration with my parts and connection with everything around me, but when I get into conversations with people I start to reach and merge. text/html 2026-07-16T21:44:08+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=invisible_felt_sensations&rev=1784238248&do=diff 🫧 Invisible Felt Sensations In buddism, suffering is an unavoidable part of life, but that dosent mean being nailed to the cross. Its the ongoing sense of dissatisfaction that things aren't as we want them to be. Roshi sometimes talks about the struggle to accept that the world dosent really give a shit about you. The other side to all this focus on suffering is the aim through practice to fully embrace my life as it really is. text/html 2026-07-16T21:43:07+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=emotional_synaesthesia&rev=1784238187&do=diff 🤷‍♂️ Emotional Synaesthesia I think I might have some kind of synaesthesia of social and emotional dynamics. I know most people connect through words, facial expressions and body language, but when I'm with people, I sense invisible forms, distortions in the field, pushing in and out of the boundaries between us. This leaves me feeling connected, but also, like I just missed what was happening. text/html 2026-07-10T21:35:52+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=20250212_002415.jpg&ns=0&rev=1783719352&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=7286cb&amp;media=20250212_002415.jpg" alt="20250212_002415.jpg" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" /> text/html 2026-07-10T21:33:45+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=20250214_163244.jpg&ns=0&rev=1783719225&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=9acd5a&amp;media=20250214_163244.jpg" alt="20250214_163244.jpg" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" /> text/html 2026-06-23T09:08:19+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=illustration-of-lewins-force-field.png&ns=0&rev=1782205699&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=6b0dd9&amp;media=illustration-of-lewins-force-field.png" alt="illustration-of-lewins-force-field.png" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" /> text/html 2026-06-23T09:08:01+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=kurt-lewin-life-space-710x458.jpg&ns=0&rev=1782205681&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=03f9ce&amp;media=kurt-lewin-life-space-710x458.jpg" alt="kurt-lewin-life-space-710x458.jpg" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" /> text/html 2026-06-22T20:34:46+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=vehicles-2.gif&ns=0&rev=1782160486&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=1ebc1f&amp;media=vehicles-2.gif" alt="vehicles-2.gif" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" /> text/html 2026-06-22T20:34:11+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=vehicles-12-300x268.jpg&ns=0&rev=1782160451&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=c6c926&amp;media=vehicles-12-300x268.jpg" alt="vehicles-12-300x268.jpg" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" /> text/html 2026-06-22T20:30:20+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=jetsandsharks.jpg&ns=0&rev=1782160220&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=b83914&amp;media=jetsandsharks.jpg" alt="jetsandsharks.jpg" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" /> text/html 2026-06-22T20:29:10+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=builder.png&ns=0&rev=1782160150&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=f304cd&amp;media=builder.png" alt="builder.png" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" /> text/html 2026-06-22T20:28:58+00:00 neilwinterburn (neilwinterburn@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?image=builder-1.png&ns=0&rev=1782160138&tab_details=history&media_do=diff&do=media <img src="https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?w=500&amp;h=500&amp;tok=ecbbac&amp;media=builder-1.png" alt="builder-1.png" loading="lazy" width="500" height="500" />