https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/ 2026-08-03T22:36:12+00:00 https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/ https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/lib/exe/fetch.php?media=wiki:logo.png text/html 2026-07-16T21:05:25+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=a_material_image_field&rev=1784235925&do=diff 🪨 A material object field There will be collections of material objects that participants can bring into the scene. Participants will be asked to move the objects as if they were animated in some way & asked to imagine their experience and affect on the scene. The material field is made of lots of things that you would expect to see in that scene at that time and lots of things you wouldn’t, from queer people and women’s lives and other experiences at the time. Also random objects from everyda… text/html 2026-07-16T21:10:45+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=a_messier_field&rev=1784236245&do=diff 🫟 A messier field The move something sculpture games I used to set up in the plaster room started with a collection of objects and materials, arranged in a mess. I think it was the messiness of those starting piles that made it work. We could stare into the chaos and something would reach out and get our attention, we could begin to organise the mess into an order, although we may each have different ideas of order. Some thing about the mess provokes interaction, change, movement and ordering.… text/html 2026-07-16T16:03:36+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=an_augmented_image_field&rev=1784217816&do=diff 🫧 An augmented image field Around the periphery of the scene there is a field of augmented images that participants can see in the same social AR app as the characters avatars. This peripheral field will be made up of parts of images of people, places and things from 90s pop culture and personal archives that weren’t present or wanted in the scene in the park. The field of fragmented images should cover and represent a huge range of different ways of responding to the situation - almost every … text/html 2026-07-16T21:46:21+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=ar_to_show_the_gaps&rev=1784238381&do=diff 🤸 AR to show the gaps I want to create experiences through which people see thoughts as thoughts and so have vivid sensory and embodied experience of themselves in material social spaces. Picturing the moment people switch focus from augmented thoughts to their own presence, the presence of others and the space between. text/html 2026-07-16T21:39:01+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=art_as_a_medium_for_radical_self_acceptance&rev=1784237941&do=diff 🤡 Art as a medium for radical self acceptance Each new moment and situation offers the chance to accept and integrate experiences, sensations and feelings I have previously pushed away and disowned. The lesson from mahayana zen Buddhism and ghestalt therapy is that i can integrate unfinished business from my past through the radical acceptance of all the felt sensasions brought up by the moment, thr things I push away in the moment, not by thinking. text/html 2026-07-16T15:31:54+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=artificial_life_and_decentralised_systems&rev=1784215914&do=diff 🤖 Artificial Life and decentralised systems Decentralised systems are systems in which complex behaviours emerges from simple interactions between many agents, such as birds, cells, people driving cars or market traders, over time. These systems, sometimes also known as Complex or Dynamical Systems, are increasingly being used to explain fluctuations of the stock market, the movement of traffic, natural ecosystems and more recently the workings of the mind. text/html 2026-07-16T21:51:36+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=being_a_superorganism&rev=1784238696&do=diff 🪼 Being a superorganism Thoughts build the self as termites build a mound, living around the body like fish, shrimp and octopuses, in and around coral reefs. This feels key for this method - I want people to be able to roleplay on the scale of the ants. There could be something liberating in dropping our responsibility for our self and playing, thinking, moving and talking as the multitudes of different small but highly specialised thoughts and feelings. text/html 2026-07-16T21:28:44+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=camouflaged_thoughts&rev=1784237324&do=diff 🌿 Camouflaged Thoughts I spend most of my time hiding my thoughts and feelings, without even realising I’m doing it. As I look for other peoples thoughts, they are usually hidden in the spaces between us -between clothes, walls and glass screens. They appear fleetingly. text/html 2026-07-16T21:11:47+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=capturing_competition&rev=1784236307&do=diff 🤼‍♂️ Capturing Competition This inner feeling of queerness has always been there, not just something I might encounter, in some possible future. I'm interested in how the tensions between felt sensations, wide eyed looking and ways I've felt kept and eye on and talked about as I was growing up. How deeply but secretly I’ve felt concerned and suspicious eyes on me throughout my life. The split I’ve experienced in myself is part of the gender and sexuality conflicts, splits and exclusions in w… text/html 2026-07-16T21:47:02+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=continuous_space_from_heart_to_room&rev=1784238422&do=diff 🫀 Continuous space from heart to room Inside is fluids, outside is fluids. Thinking, bodily sensations and rememberings move as fluids and gases inside and outside our bodies. The space I experience as being inside me is continuous with the space outside me. It sounds obvious but it’s taken 46 years for me to feel it. How much energy do I consume, trying to block the flow of unknown affects from out there to in here and vice versa? text/html 2026-07-16T15:32:56+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=decentralised_thinking&rev=1784215976&do=diff 🌬️ Artificial Intelligence Common sense tells us that our mind is a unified and singular thing, but this has been challenged by strands of artificial intelligence and psychology that aim to understand our thinking by breaking it down into many different parts. text/html 2026-07-10T21:49:52+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=defensiveness&rev=1783720192&do=diff Defensiveness The more I meditate the more I realise I experience the world in a state of fear and defensiveness, seeing everything and everyone as a potential attacker. I adapted to that experience by trying to understand people better, to be seen as an empathetic person. Being a defender is living in a state of anxiety. Seeing everything as a threat. Attack as a form of defence. Reading situations to snuff out threats before they happen. text/html 2026-07-10T21:13:17+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=different_roles_of_images_in_the_field&rev=1783717997&do=diff Different roles of small parts in the field Imagine different types of thoughts and feelings moving through the space * Feeling parts - parts of the self that show up as sensations in bodywork * Self defence images - representing how your character wants to be seen, layers of these filter which perceptions, sensations get through to the heart, guts and brain. text/html 2026-07-16T21:40:43+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=doing_this_for_myself_-_what_s_happening_in_the_scene_as_it_unfolds&rev=1784238043&do=diff 🙆‍♀️ Doing this for myself - what’s happening in the scene as it unfolds? One thing feels really clear - I'm doing this for me, because the normal ways of communicating, verbal conversation, dosen’t suit my experience of the world. I'm trying to find time, space and scaffold within everyday situations to explore visual, spatial, embodied and disembodied ways to represent the dynamics, intensions and absences I sense in the field of the situation but miss in the conversation. text/html 2026-06-18T15:13:06+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=dycpnotes&rev=1781795586&do=diff DYCP Notes I want to work with a gestalt therapist, an AR developer and men's football teams to produce an artwork that makes our unspoken desires, expectations and emotions visible as an augmented reality image field. In the gallery, the augmented reality image field will be a social art experience, groups of visitors will be able to interact with and affect the form and composition of the image field in real time. text/html 2026-07-16T21:43:07+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=emotional_synaesthesia&rev=1784238187&do=diff 🤷‍♂️ Emotional Synaesthesia I think I might have some kind of synaesthesia of social and emotional dynamics. I know most people connect through words, facial expressions and body language, but when I'm with people, I sense invisible forms, distortions in the field, pushing in and out of the boundaries between us. This leaves me feeling connected, but also, like I just missed what was happening. text/html 2026-07-16T21:24:20+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=every_thought_is_a_growth&rev=1784237060&do=diff 🦠 Every thought is a growth. If I attack them with violence they split and multiply. Sat meditating I picture abstract 70s orange and green colored blob forms flowing between me and the other people sitting, like three dimensional rivers and estuaries. I don't know which thoughts and feelings are mine, they all look the same. The grain of the blobs like the calcification of my testicle on the ultrasound. The ultrasound man shows me the imagery of the 'starry night' effect caused by calcified c… text/html 2026-07-16T15:40:19+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=extended_thoughts&rev=1784216419&do=diff 🏒 Extended thoughts The Brainbound view of mind, which has dominated western intellectual thought for over 500 years, insists that our thoughts are located inside our skulls. This has been challenged recently by a new framework from cognitive science, and philosophy of mind called the Extended Mind. This emphasises thinking that takes place outside of the brain, using the body to think and offloading information processing onto other people and things in our environment. As we communicate acro… text/html 2026-07-16T21:38:05+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=external_immune_system&rev=1784237885&do=diff ☣️ External Immune System As well as thoughts leaving trails of information, (as ants leave pheremones) along paths between things, other thoughts and their human, they also leave territorial markers, explaining what kinds of thinking and feeling dominate different territories and zones and poisonous barrier pheremones, that block the path of certain thoughts. text/html 2026-07-16T21:15:49+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=feeling_for_energies&rev=1784236549&do=diff 🙌 Feeling for energies Most of group stand in characters freeze frame position. Other 2’s/3’s can walk around. They take it in turns to suggest to each other where a particular energy, tension, intention, emotion might be in the space between the characters, then work as a group to feel for it, describing those energies by miming feeling them. text/html 2026-07-16T15:30:50+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=gestalt&rev=1784215850&do=diff 🧩 Introduction to gestalt history and background I took these notes while taking part in the Introduction to Gestalt course at the Manchester Gestalt centre which was facilitated by James Barrot. Gestalt, like Person Centred Therapy and Transactional Analysis came out of the humanistic tradition and developed in the mid 20th Century. It developed as an alternative to behaviorism and psychoanalytical therapy. text/html 2026-07-10T21:27:22+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=hadouken_press&rev=1783718842&do=diff Hadouken press Teams of lads represent different characters in the scene. Lads miming the invisible shape of some kind of emotional energy or intention. It would take 2/3 people to shape some energy into a coherent form with shape and direction. Working in teams to shape/harness some energy and then release it across into the other teams space. The other team can press against it as it forms or intercept it as it arrives close to their territory. text/html 2026-06-01T22:39:20+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=how_do_i_make_the_field&rev=1780353560&do=diff How do I make the field? Invisible Energies The field The Ground - working with what I have A messier field An augmented image field preparing a field of augmented images Using augmented images as expectations A material object field text/html 2026-07-16T21:49:24+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=i_always_externalise_myself&rev=1784238564&do=diff 🎈 I already externalise myself I externalise myself more than I ever realised. The way I perceive, hold myself and speak in social situations, expands my sense of self out into the room. This was the first big observation sharon shared about her experience of me. After the car crash I've had time by myself for the first time in ages. I'm making sense of what that collision means because I wasn't worried about it and it happened anyway. But before it, there's me filling up all this space with a… text/html 2026-07-16T12:28:54+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=i_get_this_feeling&rev=1784204934&do=diff 🦠 I get this feeling A lot of the time I get overwhelmed by the presence of other peoples thoughts and feelings, all these distortions in the space-time of the room emanating at me. Sometimes I get a sense of my thinking and feeling happening outside my body, moving around the room, communicating with other people's ideas, emotions and memories in ways I don’t understand. I used to think that was my super power, maybe it’s just anxiety. I think it’s double edged. text/html 2026-07-16T21:08:13+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=image_field_dynamics&rev=1784236093&do=diff 🏃‍♀️‍➡️ Image field dynamics All images are in constant motion Some images move constantly through the space Some images are slowed down, so they appear to be held as fixed images in space. They can be used to arrange how things are seen, or as barriers to the movement or vision of other images. text/html 2026-06-08T21:16:20+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=indirect_communication&rev=1780953380&do=diff Indirect communication I find face to face conversation, especially in meetings so intense, it feels too concentrated, like trying to force too much water down a set of pipes knowing that some are going to bust under the pressure. I decided to put less energy into nodding, eye contact and agreeing in a meeting with the youth arts team at the hospital. It felt risky, I didn't want to do it too long in case they thought I was zoning out, but while I did it I felt more in the room. text/html 2026-07-16T21:29:39+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=inner_outer_split&rev=1784237379&do=diff 💢 Inner outer split I’m sat here in the ultrasound waiting room with four other men, older than me but with a similar shaved head, bit of stubble, bit of a belly, not quite sportswear not quite casual, they're more in their 50’s, a couple with their wives or girlfriends. We've all got a similar posture steadied, looking casually into the distance, even if me and one guy are trying to look more casual with one leg crossed. I can feel the emotional energies and it's not all bad, it's musical, th… text/html 2026-07-16T21:12:49+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=intro_to_the_activity&rev=1784236369&do=diff 📖 Intro to the activity Let's imagine that all the parts of us people here, things, images and architecture, seen and unseen that make up the present moment have their own experiences, needs, intelligence and abilities. They are able to move through space. In their own very specific ways, they can sense, experience, feel and know aspects of what is happening around them. They have their own wants and needs. Some want to be seen by you, some do not want to be seen. Some of them want to become p… text/html 2026-07-16T16:02:46+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=invisible_energies&rev=1784217766&do=diff 🫥 Invisible Energies I want to make the invisible energies, desires and intentions that move between us visible, by manifesting images from our lives in the spaces between our bodies and animating them. Exploring what those constellations of images mean to us, imagining how the images are experiencing what's happening around them. Playing as images to explore the dynamics of the image field as images move, talk, emit energies and exert forces on us and each other. Each with different abilities… text/html 2026-07-16T21:44:08+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=invisible_felt_sensations&rev=1784238248&do=diff 🫧 Invisible Felt Sensations In buddism, suffering is an unavoidable part of life, but that dosent mean being nailed to the cross. Its the ongoing sense of dissatisfaction that things aren't as we want them to be. Roshi sometimes talks about the struggle to accept that the world dosent really give a shit about you. The other side to all this focus on suffering is the aim through practice to fully embrace my life as it really is. text/html 2026-07-16T21:13:54+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=inwardly_outwardly_gestalt_awareness_activitity&rev=1784236434&do=diff 👁️‍🗨️ Inwardly/Outwardly - Gestalt awareness activity From Touching Enlightenment, a book on Buddhism & bodywork. Taking it in turn in pairs, then as a group to say “Inwardly I am aware of_ _ _ _ _ _ _ , outwardly I am aware of _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .” text/html 2026-07-10T21:07:39+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=inwardly_outwardly_gestalt_awareness_activitiy&rev=1783717659&do=diff Inwardly/Outwardly - Gestalt awareness activity Taking it in turn in pairs, then as a group to say “Inwardly I am aware of_ _ _ _ _ _ _ , outwardly I am aware of _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ .” For 'inwardly I am aware of' talk about something you feel in your body text/html 2026-07-11T12:59:37+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=koans&rev=1783774777&do=diff Koans 65) The sound if something struck! - and I have forgotten all I knew. Training was not even temporarily necessary. In movement and deportment I manifest the Ancient way, And fall not into a possible pessimism. Nothing of me remains when I pass, text/html 2026-07-16T21:31:27+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=media_ether&rev=1784237487&do=diff 🎆 Media Ether I'm beginning to feel more and more the need to believe in some kind of ether! A substrate of emotional energy and collective memory between people and the media they have consumed. The idea of the thoughts being on another plane to our material life is gone for me. text/html 2026-07-16T21:33:05+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=mental_space_is_shame&rev=1784237585&do=diff 🫣 Mental space is shame The sense of a private interior mental space that we're all taught as being the bedrock of modern Western philosophical thought, comes from shame. The experience of having thoughts and feelings that need to be hidden and protected from all sides, comes from shame. text/html 2026-07-16T21:34:19+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=merging_mediating_thoughts&rev=1784237659&do=diff ☔ My merging mediating thoughts One of the ways I try to hide, is to mediate the space between myself and other people. Instead of standing away from someone and being comfortable with the gap between us and their ability to see me as different to them, I try to fill that space by translating from them to me, so I control what is seen and what passes between us. text/html 2026-07-16T21:19:35+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=moving_things_in_the_augmented_image_field&rev=1784236775&do=diff 🤳 The augmented image field Beginning the social AR experience Using an social augmented reality mobile app, participants can see digital avatars of the characters in freeze frame of the scene and a ‘starter’ composition of images positioned between them. Augmented images and 3D models appear in the exact same position in the space to everyone. text/html 2026-07-16T21:17:07+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=moving_things_in_the_material_field&rev=1784236627&do=diff 🪑 Moving things from the material field Move something Participants take it in turn to move an object in the scene or bring an object from the material field into the scene. After a round or two of bringing objects into the scene, participants take it in turns to move and animate objects, moving them a small amount each turn. Participants encouraged to imagine how these different things might move, thinking at their scale and playing with them like a child with a small toy. Over time particip… text/html 2026-06-08T20:08:07+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=my_body_as_a_sensor&rev=1780949287&do=diff My body as a sensor The body and especially sensations from parts I've repressed and dampened down - as the way to be the nondual. My feeling the queer curious part of myself, (like the floating mercury Terminator 2) integrate with the other parts of myself feels like a connection to emptiness. Not because that part of me is divine, but because its the part of myself I was most separate from. Feeling that as part of myself makes me feel more whole and connected to everything else. I felt many p… text/html 2026-07-10T21:46:17+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=new_rules&rev=1783719977&do=diff Working with groups of people to reveal the ideas, emotions and memories in situation by moving our bodies, things and images around the space. Instead of sculpting thoughts as objects using play doh or Blender, it's going to be more about feeling around for changing energies moving within and between us. text/html 2026-07-16T21:30:48+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=no_such_thing_as_mental_space&rev=1784237448&do=diff 🥅 No such thing as mind or mental space There is no such thing as mind, perceptions, thoughts and feelings are in the same physical material spaces as us. For a long time, and much more after cancer, I've seen my embodied life, my experience of the places I spend time in and the people I'm close to, as less real than the space of my mind, which I’ve seen as a seperate realm, unified and complete in itself. I’ve understood embodied emotions and human contact as things which penetrate my mental… text/html 2026-06-08T20:20:37+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=not_thoughts_but_images_in_the_space_between_us&rev=1780950037&do=diff Not thoughts but images in the space between us Parts of images that appear in space as presences of absent and unwanted sensations, perceptions, thoughts and feelings. As parts of things that shouldn't be seen or be happening in this place at this moment. text/html 2026-07-16T21:56:50+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=playing_with_thoughts_without_anthropomorphising&rev=1784239010&do=diff 🪝 Playing with thoughts without anthropomorphising Watching the kids playing with duplo, trainset and other toys lying around., Exploring the space of the living room in so many different ways, roleplaying a zoo computer game with abilities, power ups and rewards set amongst the furniture. text/html 2026-07-01T12:49:07+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=precepts_no_notes&rev=1782910147&do=diff Precepts No Notes ## The three pure precepts First, I vow to cease from evil. *This is the abiding place of laws and rules of all Buddhas.* Will you maintain this? Second, I vow to do good. *This is the Dharma of sammyak-sam-bohdi; this is the way of all beings.* text/html 2026-07-01T12:48:12+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=precepts&rev=1782910092&do=diff Jukai Precepts with notes ## The three pure precepts First, I vow to cease from evil. *This is the abiding place of laws and rules of all Buddhas.* Will you maintain this? Society is oppressive in so many ways. How can I move without unintentionally adding to the many invisible and visible waves of oppression? Maybe the key word here is ‘cease’? What if instead of trying to find a way to move without contributing to injustice, I could move less? Trying to freeze or not act dosent feel right… text/html 2026-07-16T16:04:23+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=preparing_a_field_of_augmented_images&rev=1784217863&do=diff 📲 Preparing a field of augmented images We live in a sea of fragmented media images. Visual foragers scout out the social spaces we find ourselves in, they have to pass through layers and layers of imagery in the media aether before the skin and clothes of other humans come into view, they search for some sign of something they identify with and then begin the journey back again. text/html 2026-07-16T21:45:24+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=pressing_outwards&rev=1784238324&do=diff 🫵🏽 Pressing Outwards When I have time to myself, even moments waiting for the toast to pop, I can have beautiful embodied feelings of integration with my parts and connection with everything around me, but when I get into conversations with people I start to reach and merge. text/html 2026-07-16T21:35:40+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=rocking_laelia&rev=1784237740&do=diff 👨‍🍼 Rocking Lelia This experience of sensing thoughts, its so much about being a body in a room. As I rock Laelia, gently swaying my hips left to right, moving my spine then my head 5-6 cm one way then the other - I look at the corner of the bed, smoothly panning from one perspective to another, the edge of the ikea shelves and become more aware of their 3 dimentionality, and the spatial nature of the room. Moving in and looking at the room in this way feels like it unlocks something. text/html 2026-07-16T21:26:30+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=seeing_hidden_blockages&rev=1784237190&do=diff 🫸🏽 Seeing hidden blockages Working with groups of people to reveal the ideas, emotions and memories in situation by moving our bodies, things and images around the space. Instead of sculpting thoughts as objects using play doh or Blender, it's going to be more about feeling around for changing energies moving within and between us. text/html 2026-07-16T15:30:02+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=seeing_thoughts&rev=1784215802&do=diff 👀 Seeing thoughts Seeing Thoughts According to Tibetan and Indian Buddhist tradition, Tulpas are thoughts manifestations that take on visible forms and a life of their own. More advanced Tulpas are thought to move beyond form, becoming entities in their own right. text/html 2026-07-16T21:24:40+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=sexuality_in_analogue_times&rev=1784237080&do=diff 📼 Sexuality in analogue times Haunted by experiences of possible future selves, as imagined years ago. Selves I haven't become or fully lived, yet they are still part of me. I didn't become gay me, or straight me. My unexpressed sexuality is a little sneaky, a bit slippery, a bit creepy. text/html 2026-06-01T22:33:31+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=sidebar&rev=1780353211&do=diff Menu Back to portfolio start how do I make the field text/html 2026-07-16T12:29:20+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=species_of_thoughts&rev=1784204960&do=diff 🐛 Species of thoughts Most thoughts are tiny, roaming around spaces trying to make sense of what is happening immediately around them. They first grew in other spaces, adapting to be highly specialised to sense different things, e.g. what kind of place this is, what the decor is like, what things are in the space and which memories they trigger, people's body language and expressions, keeping track of the conversation etc, to feed information back to the thoughts closer to or in the body, that… text/html 2026-07-16T21:56:41+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=start&rev=1784239001&do=diff I started this collection of notes in the first few years of my kids being born. For the first few years of each of their lives I had very little studio time, my main artistic practice was writing notes to myself about how I'd like to practice if I had the time. I got into the habit of quickly tapping down ideas on my phone on the loo, on the stairs inbetween fetching teddies/clothes/food or just before falling asleep. As hard as that was, it's really done me a lot of good to just stop for a bit… text/html 2026-07-01T12:46:00+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=sutra_book&rev=1782909960&do=diff MAHA PRAJNA PARAMITA HEART SUTRA Avalokitesvara Bodhisativa doing deep prajna paramita clearly saw the emptiness of all the five conditions, thus completely relieving misfortune and pain. O Sharipitra, form is no other than emptiness, emptiness no other than form. Form is exactly emptiness, emptiness exactly form; sensation, conception, discrimination, awareness are likewise like this. O Shariputra, all dharmas are forms of emptiness, not born, not destroyed, not stained, not pure, without loss… text/html 2026-07-16T15:34:15+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=synthetic_psychology&rev=1784216055&do=diff 🧪 Synthetic Psychology A pamphlet titled ‘Vehicles’ by Italian Cyberneticist valentine braitenberg may offer some direction here. Braitenberg create simple wheeled vehicles, with sensors hooked up to control wheel motors. Different configurations of sensors and motors would result in very different behaviours in response to lights and each other, with some vehicles avoiding stimulus, some charging towards it and others seeming caught between two minds. text/html 2026-07-16T21:20:53+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=talking_to_images_and_objects_in_the_field&rev=1784236853&do=diff 🗨️ Questions to augmented images and material things in the scene. These questions are directed to the augmented image or material object What can you see, feel or experience? Where is your territory and where do you roam? Where do you want to be? text/html 2026-07-16T21:50:31+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=that_feeling_of_being_watched&rev=1784238631&do=diff 👀 That feeling of being watched Sandi Hughes told me that when someone was getting above themselves and taking up too much space, she would say to them “Get back in your body you!” This is the phenomenon I’m trying to explore, the feeling I get, that we send out parts of ourselves to scan, interpret and manipulate the social space we're in. I can feel myself do it and I can sense the presence of other peoples emotions and wants. Most of them busy, intense and pressing onto me or other people, … text/html 2026-07-16T15:32:14+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=the_field&rev=1784215934&do=diff 🌬️ The Field The idea of the field coming from modern physics is used in gestalt and more recently in social sciences and philosophy of social sciences. Here is a wiki with an overview of the field as used in sociology. This woman talks about the field is made up of both text/html 2026-07-16T21:09:45+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=the_ground_-_working_with_what_i_have&rev=1784236185&do=diff 🪑 The ground, working with what I have I don't have access to what thoughts look like. I can only represent thinking with the imagery I do have access to. The feeling I'm trying to describe is of things moving, being pushed and shifted, more how thoughts and feelings, move and interact within and between us, rather than what they look like as objects. text/html 2026-07-16T21:36:28+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=the_kitchen_hob_is_singing_to_me&rev=1784237788&do=diff 🍳 The kitchen hob is singing to me Most of the time I'm so focused on my own thoughts, the physical space I'm in fades almost completely away. Right now though I’m in the Kitchen waiting for the kettle to boil and THE MATERIALS OF THIS SPACE ARE SINGING with MY BODY. I’m experiencing this kitchen as a huge, complex landscape. Imagining the thoughts and feelings teeming around my empty Kit-Kat mug, like a giant watching a colony of seabirds around a cliff, some larger thoughts glide around the… text/html 2026-07-16T21:22:22+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=this_practice_needs_a_space&rev=1784236942&do=diff 🧱 This practice needs a space I could have the most amazing activities and aesthetic, but it won't matter if I don't bring about the right kind of space for people to encounter it in. In gestalt conversation is used. although spoken word can be unsatisfying, it is quick, readily understood and so works really well when looking to use dialogue to identify energies and intentions. Creating visual content for AR is time consuming. Creating bespoke imagery to represent each thought or feeling wou… text/html 2026-07-16T12:29:33+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=thoughts_and_spaces&rev=1784204973&do=diff 🐳 Thoughts and spaces Something about the mismatch between thoughts and feelings I'm least aware of and the material situation I find myself in. The spaces we encounter in our everyday lives are designed to keep us in place and encourage us to play certain roles. Like canteen style display counters and tills in supermarket cafes, hospital waiting rooms, or collections on peoples dedks in open plan offices, booths in late night bars. text/html 2026-07-16T12:30:13+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=thoughts_are_confusing_to_look_at&rev=1784205013&do=diff 👾 Thoughts are confusing to look at The thoughts that move between us are difficult to see, their markings are confusing to the eye, not as clearly separated, ordered and defined as we might like. Even if we could see them we wouldn’t be able to understand what most of them are trying to communicate. Each adapted to live in or around somewhere in the landscape of human rooms, the corner of a mouth, beside a fruit bowl, around a cot. Each with its own very limited, highly specialised ability to… text/html 2026-07-16T21:54:14+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=thoughts_are_desires&rev=1784238854&do=diff Thoughts are desires This is what connects my practice back to the messyness of people. What im feeling invisibly moving around situations isn't just thoughts that happen to be moving, but the conflicting forces of my own and other peoples wills, intentions and desires. Thoughts aren’t static representations moving through space, but intentions for things to become that way, moving towards the thing they want to affect. text/html 2026-07-10T22:20:05+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=thoughts_growing_in_holgate_working_men_s_club&rev=1783722005&do=diff Thoughts growing in Holgate Working Men's Club Thinking about how thoughts live, grow and reproduce in spaces, how they adapt and thrive or are silenced and pushed out. Showing what a thought does, (its role in the ant colony of the mind) by showing where it comes from Holgate working mens club, men telling stories about being sent on a wild goose chase by some idiot, talking about holidays by the fruit machine, grandad and his mates chatting as they guard their dominoes, kids weaving through … text/html 2026-07-16T21:04:36+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=using_augmented_images_as_expectations&rev=1784235876&do=diff 🤨 Augmented images as expectations Use the field of augmented image parts from pop culture and personal archives, to represent my own and other peoples needs and expectations, sitting mid air, filtering information between our immediate sensations and feelings and what is happening in the situation beyond all our expectations. Playing with the idea that the augmented image parts are from the past, so a heightened way to represent expectations which are always from the past, never open to the m… text/html 2026-07-16T21:06:54+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=what_does_the_field_look_like&rev=1784236014&do=diff *️⃣ What does the field look like It will look like a blizzard of the possibilities in the situation, emitted from parts of people and things they are hidden on, faces, tracksuits, footy boots, rucsacs, cones, grass, the clouds, offering glimpses into the times and places they are from - and moving out into space to compete for the viewers attention. text/html 2026-06-22T20:17:17+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=where_is_my_mind&rev=1782159437&do=diff Where is my mind This project aims to explore new ways of thinking about our minds by describing our thoughts as things that we can see, things that (kind of) have a life of their own. This idea goes against many of our common sense understandings of what our minds are and how they work. Most of us are used to thinking about our thinking as something that is private, internal and authored only by ourselves. Early psychology settled on a description of mind as a singular and private stream of c… text/html 2026-07-16T12:29:49+00:00 Anonymous (anonymous@undisclosed.example.com) https://neilwinterburn.net/notes/doku.php?id=worming_thoughts&rev=1784204989&do=diff 🪱 Worming thoughts I’m watching Leo, squirming up to the arm in the sofa to get comfy, watching Axels adventures on youtube. The love I share with Leo getting deeper into my bones as I look at him this morning after last night in A&E. The feeling when from my